Sweet catastrophe.

Terang!

How time has flew. It was 2 months ago when i’ve attended this phenomenal event. It totally gave me a new direction to architecture. A new breath. I was more determined of myself, trying to be the best i can when a golden opportunity is given. The fact that i kind of screw the chance made me furiously mad at myself. How could i not appreciate it when it is right in front of my eyes.

Simply said, i wasn’t my real self for a very uneasy long while. I couldn’t really blame myself. I couldn’t really put the blame on anyone. It was just a matter of time to finally have my very first breakdown, after being strong throughout my 18 years of life with the challenges i’ve faced. This by far was the hardest, as i had kept everything and it grew to something bigger. Having to take no action. The courage to tell someone about it makes matters worse. Facing things alone was not the best option.

I had to reconcile with my heart. With how i blew up my chance. The state where i could’ve been more tranquil and probable. Pathetic. I was. It saddens me but what do they say, have no regrets and keep moving forward in life. When life gives you lemon, you make lemonades J

I’ve always been this optimistic girl, always. With such heartless heart, that can wander out of space. As far as imaginable. Not giving me the tendency of getting things into my nerve. But that suddenly changed and it knocked me off my feet at a totally wrong moment in time. At the wrong occasion. Lesson learned. Now i know that i have to face difficulties with such grace and i should not keep it to myself. Yes i can be quite a good listener but i am very secretive when it comes to myself.

Thank you for those who stood by me. May Allah S.W.T bless you. Those were the times where i knew who my real friends are. Those who truly care, who worries for the right reason, who lends you a shoulder to cry on, who has been there through everything. The other important person i’ve got to thank would have to be my darling Mummy, the queen of my heart. All is full of love. And so, I’ve overcomed.

Now let us be grateful to people who makes us happy. They are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.