Nostalgic sentiment.

At such tender age and what happens next,

1. I drink from the bottle until i was 7!

It was a habit of mine to lay down (to hide LOL) at the back of the car while gulping on milk, before mummy drops me off to school. No, not cow’s milk. I drank soya ever since i was little, no wonder it’s my favourite until now.

2. I tried to speak in English as much as i could.

I was always exaggerating my words. It wasn’t good, i was a boaster bahaha. Like literally. “Budget gila”. Whenever mummy or daddy records a video of me, i’ll be talking English like a show off. I even call them mother and father when the video is on recording, in British accent. Yes, a bit over eh? The most unforgettable thing is that i create my own words just to scare off my little brothers and sister haha, it’s a way that i curse. For instance, ‘zumberianzation betul’ or or ‘puttyremnisiful lah korang ni!’ and so on. So automatically their mind says “OMG KAKAK SO MAAAD”. Old bossy days. I very much prefer to type in English cause my vocab in BM is not that wide, i grew up talking in English comfortably with daddy.

3. I dance in front of the TV like no one’s looking.

Everyday, i turn on MTV right after i get into the house after a day done with school. My favourite was Britney Spears and Spice Girls! My favourite emo song would have to be “mamaaaa, i loveee you”. I would skip lunch just to watch their music video on MTV. That was the age where i started to buy albums and sort. I knew one day i had to go for dancing classes, but i still haven’t till today. End up i turned to singing. I loveeee to sing.

4. I like to wrestle on bed.

Why on bed? Makes me feel like i’m on the arena LOL. I lost 2 of my teeth due to this. People might look at my exterior as a feminine looking girl, but actually i’m up for rough and tough stuff. Surprisingly, i have the strength. I was the yellow power ranger in kindergarten. Until now i have the habit of hurting people, not in the sense of breaking their heart. I meant like giving them the pleasure of pain at their body. Well pain is a pleasure for me, i like how it feels. Pinching, slapping and punching. Only with my closed ones though. They know how aggressive i can be.

5. I never liked to read.

Here’s a funny story mummy told me. She said that i couldn’t read when i was in kindergarten, but then my teacher said that i could so they set up a meeting where my mummy has to see me read with her own eyes. What happened was, i read fluently. Then mummy asked the teacher to take another book, epic failure i couldn’t read a thing. So yeah i was actually memorizing what the story was when it was read by my teacher. I can read nowww laaa. But still hate it! The encyclopaedia books daddy bought me, i’ve only started reading the first one now (still haven’t finished) General knowledge is important, Lydia! That’s why i suck real bad in history, my subjenemy (subject enemy ngahaa).

6. I was never a fan of cats.

You see when i was around 4 or 5, i thought cats were just like lizards. So i end up pulling the cat’s tail, waiting to see when it’ll finally be unattached to it’s body but still moving. But even before i could see that in reality, it bit my thumb! My bleeding was indescribable. Just a lot. Luckily my thumb was still there haha. So yeah, from that day onwards we were rivals. Needless to say, i got scared of them. Plus, i’m also allergic to them. That’s a good reason for not being all silly cuddly wuddly with them.

7. I was not born a genius.

I worked hard till where i am now. I was not the kind of girl who was in smart classes as a child. I always, always failed Bahasa Melayu, Mathematics and other subjects in primary school. Then mummy registered me for mental arithmetic classes, i started to like numbers and i got 99% for UPSR trials. Was also the fastest to finish the multiplication table. End up with only 4As for UPSR. And there again, i worked for it. Even in high school, i was the least smartest in my circle. I’m the kind who focuses in class and never touch it again after that, the best thing is that i pick up fast. I lacked a lot during PMR, didn’t even read. That’s why i got A only for subjects that doesn’t need much reading; English, Science and Mathematics. Sad, 3As. And again lowest among my friends. I cried, mummy said okay what for a girl who doesn’t read. Then comes SPM, i made it into sub science class. I didn’t liked accounts but mummy thought why waste my math skills. Just to favour her, i took it. Form 4, additional mathematics was a pain in the *ss. Fail fail fail. So i started taking tuition classes in Form 5. My add maths teacher hated me! I was the noisy ketua kelas, exercise books all empty. She often ask me to sit at the back of the class. At last, she saw potential when i aced my trial paper. She signed my paper, yes sign! Cause she was leaving the school haha, and she said she have faith in me of being the only one to get an A in the class. I was like okay. Finally proved her wrong. So yeah i managed to get 6As for SPM, i actually wanted more cause i got 6As for trials. But what the heck i was over the moon kinda happy for myself. I worked myself up the ladders, i climbed slowly. Imma stop here at lucky #7.

This is just a reminder to myself, do not change who you truly are. Who you really are will always stick in your heart. You bring it everywhere, showcasing to the world of who your real self is. Do not fake it. And if you’re not good enough, as for me not smart enough, try harder and work for it. You will definitely be satisfied with the end result, being rewarded for the well done efforts. Look where i am now, i am a happy girl who is studying architecture. :)

Motivate yourself.